Growing Up

Okay.

So now basically, my heartbeat's gonna now be like the frenzied beating of the drum as these 15 days pass by, one after the other.

No more :

1)laughing for small things like a donkey.

2)acting childish around anyone.

3) fooling around. In any aspect.

Now every day :

1)is going to be a wake up call.

2)my nose will be rubbed on the ground,till I have given my all.

Yes, I will be 18 in just 15 days.

But things, will they ever be the same, though I want it to?

Well, yeah, I'm waiting.

But I don't want to grow up.

As said by Liv Tyler, " I thought 17 was such a nice age. You're young enough to get away with things, but you're old enough, too. "

:(

Growing up.

The words often heard of, but yet, take time to sink in.

It doesn't really happen when you get older.

It happens though, when you've learnt about the bitchy nature of the world.

It happens, when you finally learn to survive without people whom you never wanted to leave, but end up leaving you.

It happens, when you realise that strong friendship is not determined by how long you know him/her, but how long have you been close to him/her.

It happens , when you realise that change does not define you really are. It just shows what you're losing out at.

The thought of growing up irritates you. You miss your childhood more than you imagined.

But if your childhood has been bad, then you choose ways to make life worth living, often harming your health.

But , there are certain people in your life, through your path of growing up, who have made your day.

And without them, life's just an empty book with pages yet to be filled.

And with their love for me in mind, I grow up.

I decide to move on, but still live my life 'cause of them.

After all, love is what keeps us alive!

And with that thought,

16th December, 2012, its time to give me the grandest party of a lifetime! :D

I guess I HAD to pour my heart out! :')

I want people who don't like me AT ALL,

to know that there was once upon a time,

where I tried changing myself,

so as to please you people .

But then, here goes a saying,

" the whole world's a cunning fox. "

I mean its been years since,

I've met people,

who call me at one point of time,

when they need me the MOST,

and in the next point of time,

starts stabbing my back ,

and keeping bets about ME,

for no rhyme or reason.

If you don't like me, just tell it to my face.

God has made me stronger each year,

so as to face moments like these.

And I want to thank Him and those people,

who TRULY love me and trust me,

for being there when I needed people.

Love you all!

So here goes a conclusion,

if there are any problems in me,

go ahead, tell me ,

I can change those things in me.

But don't you DARE, comment on me, BEHIND MY BACK!

Its as if you're perfect and I'm imperfect.

Face it, everyone's imperfect.

So just live your own lives and let me live my life in peace.

PLEASE! :|

God bless you all! :)

xx

What is this? I do not know!

                     This seems strange.Does seem more special than the way it is portrayed in the movies though.This time, I've not forced myself to feel for him..This just happened. His happiness is becoming my happiness; his sadness , my sadness. My heart's telling me to go steady with him. Heart's wanting me not to wait for anyone else but for him.

                     
                      I've never felt this way before.With anyone.Not even with my exes. He looks decent, but when I look at him, eyes to eyes, I just, never .. Argh, I've never been in a loss of words like now.I'm blushing everywhere. Even while I'm studying.
                    
                      I become crazier than I used to be, whenever I'm around him.Every moment seems complete when he's in my mind. Every bad feeling vanishes when he's with me.I don't want to get over him..

                      What is this? I do not know! THIS, is not infatuation for sure! THIS, is something deep. Something which can't be described. I wait for him wherever I go. I feel bad when I see him with someone else. I would love to sacrifice things for him..

                       Dang, is this love? 

For people , who ask girls after their recent break-up , " Who's the next person?"

A woman of bad character is not defined by the number of boyfriends she's had. She's defined as a person who sleeps with people and get paid in return.

You narrow minded people will never learn. Never ever.


Think whatever you think. But what about you?


God's standards are pretty high when these issues are concerned. Its like if you even look at a woman with lustful eyes, you've already slept with her. Mentally, that means. So, I may have had many  boyfriends, but you already have slept with many girls by looking at them lustfully. So, you and I are equal in this case! Haha!

Now, rumours have been spread that I've slept with many people, just 'cause I refuse to sleep with them. Why do you only believe them? Why can't you look at the other side?


Besides, now that I'm single, since you've asked me who's the next person, I shall answer, the next person is ME! 'Cause I have never ever loved myself and now is the chance to do so!

SO , hope you've got your answer.