Just A Dream

She decided to close her eyes and fall into a deep sleep. 

She then imagined that she was in college. She roamed around aimlessly. Bewildered. Until she saw, the guy she's always liked. The next moment, she thought of everything that happened between them from the first time they met till that very moment when she saw him again. He met her in the cultural club auditions. 

He introduced himself to her. That moment, she'd never felt so lit up and special. Like there was someone on this earth wanting to meet her and he finally got the chance to do so.

She tried messaging him on Facebook, until he gave her his number. Initially, they hit off like crazy.  Like as if they'd known each other for so long. 

She told him about her life and a summary of her past. His reply had made her feel so peaceful inside. "I've seen how you are and trust me, you're Shaina for me, not the Shaina people talk about. Don't mind or ever bother all the narrow mindedness that you face. You've started on a totally fresh page for me. And I've been impressed beyond words by your charming personality. So don't worry. :)"

She loves rereading those words over and over again.  

IHe used to be busy almost all the time until the day he came home along with two other friends, at the anti ragging squad where he pulled her leg, and after friendship day, where they met in the college canteen, she gave him a self made card, he tied around her wrist a friendship band(which he'd proclaimed was self made ) and spent time like crazy. 

He wanted to introduce her to his friends. He did so. And his friends tease him with her. Or probably the other way round. But she wants his friends to like her. Above all, she wants him to like her. She wants to take things slow with him after her heart'd been broken so many times. 

It all boiled down to that moment when she saw him again. Him and his killer smile. It was raining. They both wanted to say things they couldn't say to each other before. 

He told her that he had a surprise for her. So, he held her hand and took her to the open auditorium, where his band was going to perform a song for her. Her favourite song. The band performed well. When everyone went away, they stayed back. That's when she told him that she was pissed at him. He told her that he liked her, something which she always wanted to hear. 

She was like,"Are you sure? Because you know how my heart is now." To which he replied,"You're one of the most amazing girls I've known. Who's just herself. Why won't I like you?" They then shared a small kiss on the lips and decided to take things slow from there. 

Till she woke up, her face was lit by a glowing smile on her face that seemed so beautiful  beyond description. But when she opened her eyes in the morning with a jolt, her smile had turned into a frown. 'Cause she realised that it was only just a dream. 

Them feels

Imagine yourself standing in the midst of a crowded road of a foreign country. You turn around and barely know anyone. And then, you see a beacon of hope. A person whom you know so well. Whom you trusted so much and loved deeply. Whose heart you'd broken so badly that you still can't get over the guilt of hurting that person. You wish to run and hold his hand and you do that too. But then he disappears into thin air. Like in horror movies. But, even scarier. As that one person who mattered the most, you've lost him more than he lost you. You're now in shatters. The imagination shatters. Do you feel the void that has been made by that person? Well, I feel it now. 

But can I do anything about it? I'm scared to talk to him. I'm scared that whether I'll be able to talk to him and tell him what I feel from the bottom

of my heart. That I miss him. Should I try? Should I tell him? Or should I wait? For him to talk? (I don't want him to guilt trip me. That's all.)

Problems : Not as Big as The Problem Solver

I've now taken a deep breath and I now look at my past which has been nothing but actually like a Maths text book whose problems become more difficult as the chapters keep on increasing. 

The day I topped in things, especially academics, I was failing in relationships. As I tried improving my relationships, I felt a decay in my thirst for academics. 

It was like academics is trigonometry and relationships are calculus. Both pretty confusing but somehow, necessary in life. 

Hence, problems arise. 

While I'd focused on failing in academics alone, I didn't realise that my life itself is like a weighing balance. If the weight goes up on one thing, it goes down on the other. But then, is it possible to maintain equal balance on both the sides AT THE SAME TIME? Technically, it does seem impossible. But THAT's when The Problem Solver comes in and with the strength that He has. He helps us maintaining the equal balance if we allow Him to.